April 2010
1 post
1 year 5 months and 12 days
I love Dennis Enrique Vazquez!
December 2009
3 posts
12/28 day 53
loving you has brought me to a place in my life where everything seems perfect. you have showered me with light on my darkest days and without you in my life i would be living in misery, always questioning myself. what if i had done this, or what if i had done that. would things have been different, better maybe? i know that before i met you, i was perfectly fine, but now that i’ve been...
1 year, 1 month, 24 days and still counting!
12/27 day 52
its been a while since i posted anything to you because i just found that what i was writing to you threw posts was pretty much the same as what i was writing in your letters. then today i looked at my old posts and realized they are like my journal. something for you to look at when you get out and see how i felt each day, or what i did. and i feel like this will show you how much i do for you...
November 2009
25 posts
11/26 day 21
HAPPY THANKSGIVING BABY! i woke up crying this morning because all i could think about is the fact that everyone should be with the people they love on holidays, especially this one, and your not. you probably got nasty food, and it was just another day for you. i am so thankful for you babe. everything that we have been threw and all our memories are what keep me going each day. without you in my...
11/25 day 20
tomorrow is thanksgiving and we wont be together. i miss you. i know that i shouldnt let this get to me but it does. so much. ive been making stuff for our room. when you get out its going to be a surprise. i really wish i could get a letter from you or something. i know that i wont get one at least not until friday, maybe. honestly i just want to get the application to come see you so that i can...
11/24 day 19
baby i miss you so much. its been an entire week since we have talked at all. i wish there was a way that i could see you or talk to you. i gave your mom your plates today. she actually said gracias. :] haha. it was wierd honestly. for her to actually be nice for once. damn babe. i hope i get a letter from you soon. i want to atleast know that your okay. well this thursday will be our second...
11/23 day 18
this afternoon i called the prison to talk to your case worker so i could get an application, and was told that you have been transferred again. then i called back later to see if they knew where you had been transferred to only to find out that you are still there!? what the fuck. do they not know how to check that shit. whatever. so tomorrow i will be calling to talk to your case worker and...
11/22 day 17
ugh! one whole week now. an entire week of not seeing your face. the face that woke me up every morning the face that would comfort me and make me laugh when ever a smile came across it. last night as i was falling asleep i swear i could feel your arm around me like it used to be as we fell asleep, and it was all i could do not to cry. i miss that. i miss the protection i felt in your arms....
11/21 day 16
today is the first saturday in our relationship that i will not see you. i have not seen you in six days which up until now was not normal. even since you have been locked up i still came and saw you every weekend saturday and sunday. and now you are so far away that i dont even know when i will see you again. hopefully you will get the letters i sent you soon so that you can write back. your...
11/20 day 15
you did get moved, not only did you get moved but you are now five hours away from me near the mountains. ugh. it sucks cause i wont be seeing you for a long time now. it hurts but i understand its what we have to do. in two more weeks we will be done with one whole month, and we will only have 11 to go, if you dont get out any earlier than you should. i wrote you a letter and stuck it in the...
11/19 day 14
i think you got moved tonight. i waited for your call and it never came, so i called and they said you were no longer there. i miss you so much, and to think, now i cant see you this weekend and i wont see you for a while. i wish you would have stayed there longer but at the same time, this makes me feel like everything is starting to get going… tomorrow will be two weeks since you have been...
11/18 day 13
your supposed to be calling any minute now and i cant wait! i wait all day just to hear your voice when i know your going to call, and when your not going to call, i hold my breath till the day that you can. god i miss hearing your voice. i honestly dont think you realize how much you mean to me. today Mr Gorman asked about you, i was actually surprised. its wierd when people ask me how im doing...
11/17 day 12
i just hung up the phone with you. im always so excited for you to call, but then as soon as i realize we cant be on the phone as long as we want, and i will be forced to hang up with you after 15 minutes it all hits me. i cry hysterically and it just kills me. this friday will be two weeks. which means there are two weeks down and fifty more to go. i realized that counting the weeks goes by alot...
11/16 day 11
im in fourth period doing some project thing where we are writing a letter to either Obama, the mayor of our city, or our principal on issues we have about anything relating to them. im so bored. i cant wait to go home so i can see if you wrote babe. school goes by much faster now. its 3:22 already and i only have 8 minutes left before its all over. then i can go to christianas and do homework, :/...
11/15 day 10
i got to come see you again this morning :] your so fuckin cute babe. i love your laugh. but your stupid as fuck for getting into a fight. none of the dudes in there are ever going to matter once you are out so i dont understand why what they say bothers you so much. you know im here. forever. and you know that what they’re saying isnt true, but whatever i understand that you have to stand...
11/14 day 9
i just got back from visiting you. seeing you made me so happy. i have been waiting all week just to see that smile. im happy your doing okay but you need to stay out of trouble. dont listen to what other people say. i am NOT going anywhere, im not going to cheat, i dont need anyone other than you. i love you and only you and nothing and no one will ever change that. im already ready to come back...
11/13 day 8
i got your letters today and they made me emotional. im so glad that i get to come see you tomorrow. i miss your smile and face so much. all i keep telling myself is one week is over with, that means there is only 51 weeks left to go. days go by quicker now. hopefully the weekend will go by quickly too. all i do is work on that scrap book for you. i want it to be the best it can be so when you get...
11/12 day 7
i have started a new project for you babe! im making a scrap book. from our begining. starting from our very first picture. it will be what occupies my time between now, and the day you get out. i really wish i could have talked to you tonight, but i know i can not talk to you every day, nor every night, but its just not fair. im tired of going threw this pain alone. i hate when i feel like im...
11/11 day 6
even though we didnt talk last night, before i went to bed i still said goodnight and blew you a kiss. it has almost been one week. that means there is only 51 weeks left to go. seems like so long but it isnt babe, it will go by quicker once things settle. i have begun to get used to the fact that when i go home after school and see your car in my drive way, that your not there. its only your car...
11/10 night five
every time i look at my page and see the pictures of us, and here our song i cant help but think of how hard it really is and how much im trying to hide the fact that all i want to do is cry. it has only been 5 days yet it feels like so much longer. the days have begun to pass by quicker, and i know that this is hard but it makes me realize how strong we truly are. and those ten minutes a night...
11/8 day three
it is becoming easier as the days go bye. its not even the time that hurts, its the fact that im so worried about you being in prison. the things that could happen to you. i keep telling myself that you are just on a vacation, and youll be back soon. every time i hear your voice i can do nothing but cry because when i dont hear it i miss it so much. every night i say goodnight with tears in my...
11/7 day two after visitation
so i went and saw my baby today. it was horrible. to see him threw the TV in an orange jumpsuit. i couldnt stand to see how hurt and alone he looked. i wish i could comfort him the same way i wish he could comfort me. seeing that he is okay makes me feel somewhat better but i would feel a whole lot better if he was out with me. i miss walking with him, kissing him, hugging him, i miss his voice...
11/6 night one
baby! ughh. i miss you and i wish you werent so stupid! this year is going to be hard babe. all the things that will remind me of you. sitting at home alone everynight knowing youll never be the one knocking on the door cause your home from work. to drive past places we went together, or do things we did together. life will become unbearable for me. the only reason i will wait it all out is...
11/6 day one
i just hung up with you and even though we have only been apart for like 3 hours it hurts so much to know i cant talk to you face to face. to know that the next time i see you it will be threw a screen, and speaking to you threw a phone hits me so hard. i cant wait to come see you tomorrow. i hope you are doing okay and keeping your head up. im praying for you babe. every day and every time i...
hes gone
so today was my last day with my fiancee. he is now gone for the next 12-15 months. i miss him so much and it hurts so much to be away from him. this morning all i could do was cry and to see him put in handcuffs was the worst sight in my life. baby no matter what people say i will be here. no one can take my heart from you. i am and always will be yours. you dont know it yet but i will be coming...
11/4
babe we have nearly one more day together before you will be takin and walked away from me. friday morning will hurt like hell babe, and if i didnt love you i wouldnt put myself threw the pain that im going to go threw while your gone. i wish you werent at work right now. we only have a little time left and you are spending it at work instead of here with me, the one you love, the one who is going...
i will miss you
i cant shake the fact that you are leaving. i never thought that this would happen and i wish i had more time with you but i dont. all i want to do for these last few days is just hold you as long and hard as i can. no one in this world compares to you. you are the love of my life. right now you are at work and all i wish is that you were here. your only 5 minutes away from me now and i cant stop...
November 3 2009
it is our one year anniversary babe. this year has been full of ups as well as downs but you remain the most important part of it all. i am begining to realize that my days with you are limited. i only have a few days before you will be gone and i wont have anyone to hold me and kiss me and show me that they care. baby i know that together we can make it threw this with no problem. it will be...
October 2009
4 posts
im not going anywhere
baby i want you to realize that no matter what we have been threw i have stuck by you, without question. you have been the reason i wake up every morning. your are what keeps me going each and every day. without you life would have no meaning, and i dont know where i would be. you have made me the person that i am today babe. no matter how many times we argue or how many times we fight we have...
why i love you;;
i love you because
-your different
-your not just about having sex
-you still look at me the same way you did a year ago
-sometimes i still get butterflies when im around you
-everyday the love i have for you grows more
-i love being held in your arms
-i love waking up in your arms
-i love the way your lips feel on mine
-i was so tired of being afraid to get hurt
-you have been there for...
Fact
school has been exta boring today.
1st period- high as fuck barely remember it and my tummy hurt
2nd period- math and being high still
3rd period- fuck you Mr Gorman!
4th period- i miss yami! bored. two more minutes and im out this bitch! :D
September 2009
1 post
“I wish that once you fell in the love with someone they would stay the person...”