11/18 day 13

your supposed to be calling any minute now and i cant wait! i wait all day just to hear your voice when i know your going to call, and when your not going to call, i hold my breath till the day that you can. god i miss hearing your voice. i honestly dont think you realize how much you mean to me. today Mr Gorman asked about you, i was actually surprised. its wierd when people ask me how im doing or if i miss you. its complicated, i can put on such a front like im okay with it, or that it doesnt hurt, but it does. and i miss you with all my heart duhh! i hate seeing couples that are so happy together, or when i see couples that we know fight. i just wish that they could realize that they never know what could happen, and that that person could be taken from them at any moment, so they should take the time they have for granted. once your out we are taking a million pictures cause i will be scrap booking every major part of our lives. haha. that way when our future kids grow up we can show them how happy we were from the begining and how nothing could break us. i care about you so much, and i know its hard for both of us but just stay strong. just like you couldnt do this without me, i couldnt do it without you.

i love you

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