11/22 day 17

ugh! one whole week now. an entire week of not seeing your face. the face that woke me up every morning the face that would comfort me and make me laugh when ever a smile came across it. last night as i was falling asleep i swear i could feel your arm around me like it used to be as we fell asleep, and it was all i could do not to cry. i miss that. i miss the protection i felt in your arms. feeling like no matter what, no harm could come to me in your arms. but now i have no protection, nor do i have the warmth of your body against mine on cold nights. all i have is the blankets you left me, which will never compare to you. and i cant even come see you whenever i want, i have to wait till you send me some stupid ass application which will take thirty days to process before i can come and see you. all i can hope is that you are okay, and staying out of trouble. i better not ever have to put up with this again. i can no longer say that you never broke my heart cause every day that im away from you my heart is breaking. babe you mean so much to me and i will never let you go, but i wish i didnt have to do this.

i love you

11:03:08