12/27 day 52

its been a while since i posted anything to you because i just found that what i was writing to you threw posts was pretty much the same as what i was writing in your letters. then today i looked at my old posts and realized they are like my journal. something for you to look at when you get out and see how i felt each day, or what i did. and i feel like this will show you how much i do for you and how much i care for you, and that no matter how many days i go without hearing your voice or seeing your face im still here, counting down the days, one by one till you are in my presence again.

 ive begun to find other things to keep my mind off of the pain that i go threw each and everyday that you are gone. i rarely hear your voice anymore yet from the time i wake up till the time i find myself with you in my dreams you are what occupies my mind. i am just thankful that i have found someone in this world who can listen to me go on and on about you and be there to listen. whether it has annoyed them or not, they have never complained, and i only hope that i can be there for them as much as they are here for me at this point. i feel like no matter what is going on with me any given day, i can just start talking about you and happiness over takes me. you are my heaven on earth, the being that brought my dreams to reality, and for that i am so greatful. So many things have changed since you left. some for the better, some for the worst but yet threw everything i know what truely matters to me, and thats you. no matter what happens in the world around us you are here, and here you remain. i have no doubt in that. we have overcome so much together, and we will continue to surpass any obstacles thrown our way. you are my one, my only, and everthing that i could never live without.

i love you

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